the drop of water that overspilled the vase

i did have a blessed day despite the turmoils of having a cramp that lasted a few hrs.
today started with a once-a-year deepavali lunch at hema's. it was really great, the girls, the food, hema's mom and the new addition to their family, a baby! not hema's of cos, although she will want the baby to be hers.

only after lunch did i have such horrible cramps. the afternoon would have been ruined with the warm water, panadol menstrual and hot water bottle (which hema claims that it looks lk smtg and i can never touch it again hahha) and lots of love and care frm everyone. gerrie was asking me to crouch in several positions - "roll up in one corner", kristies and hema were advocating crunches and situps, and charm, well with her moral support hahah.

in the end, i had to ps ber cos of the cramps. was supp to mug with her today... as i knew i cannot bear to spend time alone today and i really need to mug.

well, happy deepavali.


the pain i feel right now can only be comparable to the time when my thumb got smashed by ber's car door. such intensity that left me feeling nthing but numbness and occasional spurts of pain. i rem squatting by the roadside and nursing my injury and it was only some time later when the pain hit me full blown.


you maxed out my love for both you and for myself, it was the drop of water that overspilled the vase. i can't bear to think when the pain will hit me full blown. perhaps when reality sets in...